Chaos

Oddly enough I thrive on chaos.  Not other people’s chaos but my own, I am not a drama queen!  I seem to do well and become super productive at the last minute.  For example, several years ago I was working a job where a requirement was that I did trainings for the employees.  The trainings had to be 60-90 minutes long.  More than once I forgot about the trainings and then the night before prepared something and in my humble opinion, the trainings all went well.  When I was a gospel doctrine teacher I would typically read the lessons a week in advance and the most successful lessons were when I would study Saturday night and finish up the loose ends during Sacrament Meeting.  Once I was teaching a lesson on the Savior coming to the America's and I thought I would prepare weeks in advance because I wanted the class to feel the Spirit.  Unfortunately, the lesson bombed!  After class I asked one of the other teachers for some feedback and she said that I should probably prepare the lessons in advance.  So the moral of the story is I am a procrastinator and I am often reinforced for this terrible habit. 
So lately I have had had several deadlines that I have had to meet, and fortunately for me and all those involved I have come through and hopefully I did a good job.  However, there is a downside to all of this chaos, I get burnt out and then I can't do anything, and right now I am experiencing a bit of the old burn out.  So right now as I am watching TV instead of catching up on my work I am also feeling a little guilty about it, but as Scarlett says, "I'll think about that tomorrow."
So now as I am procrastinating I am hoping that nothing like this happens.



That would be embarassing.